14.28 p.m.

hi, it’s been 7 months since the last time i rant here.

not only because i need to cope with my (not) happy ending story, but also because my hands are full. but today i need to pour my thoughts and memories to my own Pensieve.

let’s just get it straight, everything indeed ended 10 years ago. maybe they were right; some things are better just to be remembered, but not to be repeated. our stories will never be the same, and maybe it’s better this way. if it were repeated, maybe you’ll shatter my heart even more, maybe i couldn’t accept your leaving in the future, or maybe it’s me that will repeat the same old mistakes.

i remember months ago you said that i just need to be myself and people will like you for who you are, just when i teased you i wanted to have the same year of birth with you. it’s not your job to get my joke anyway, and we were never a match from the first place. but one thing that you need to keep in mind, i have never been pretending to be someone else at all. never once. at least when i’m with you. (well, that explains the dislike)

now you’re happier not with me, and let’s just keep it that way.